monthsary is coming .
it coming to 20th months le .



i miss your playfullness .
i miss your lame jokes .
i miss your laughing at nothing .
i miss your eating like forever , and not finishing them .
i miss you biting me for saying you fat .
i miss your getting jealous when i look at other girls .
i miss your waiting for me when i was with my friends .
i miss your kiss when its time to go home .
i miss your silliness when nnot knowing which dress to choose .
i miss your warmth in cinemas .
i miss your whining when you wanted ice cream .
i miss your childish when doing things .
i miss your scoldings when i am sick .
i miss your greetings every morning
i miss your goodnight kisses .
i miss your voice before i slept .
i miss us hiding from someone !
i miss you standing my my side when we meet our friends .
i miss your lingering anna sui on your neck .
i miss you being late for our dates
i miss your every every everything .


don't you please give them to someone else .
don't you please take them from me .
don't you please don't give them to me anymore .
don't you please leave me .
and please , don't you leave me .


i know those stuffs i did .
i went clubbing without your consent ( once )
i went smoking ( occasionally )
i went making you jealous knowing you hated it .
i went neglecting you , spending more time with my friends .


but .
i never want to make you cry .
i never want to make you sad .
i never once ever thought of you would leave me .
i never once thought flinging with other girls .
i never once thought of releasing your hand from my grasp .


i still wanna bring you to snow city
i still wanna bring you for Singapore flyer .
i still wanna waste my time with you during chalet .
i still wanna see you in my xxl clothes
i still wanna taste your lips in every morning .

i cant do this anymore .
have not been sleepin well since that faithful night .
i wont blame anyone else but me .
i can't eat without you by my side .
i just cant stay home when you're still outside with those junks .
i know i have no right to call them junks .
is it that you found what you wanted in them?
is it that you found something in them that you can't in me?
is it that they're more fun to be with?
is it that you wanted him?
or is it that you're sick of me . .
you are everything i wanted .
the first , and be my last .


i promised to make you the 2nd happiest person in this earth
i'm sorry, but , i'll be the first . cause i have you .
please .
let me have that one more chance?
to be your everything <3

i really mean it when i said this blog is the present for our 2nd anniversary . i won't blog anymore . until you give me a reply . in the tag board :)