she held my hand to school .
she waited outside the gate when i'm off .
she disallow me to seat nearer to the door of the car .
she disallow me to drink soft drink .
she always make sure that i ate my meals everyday .
she will not fail to scold me when i snack on junks .
she always smile when i did well for my exams .
she will buy me sweets when she won gambling .
she's the first person to be greeted during new year .
she will distribute hongbao's to everyone .
she has 8 golden hearts for 8 grandchildren .
she dislike pets but feed them secretly .
she's the rule that we never fail to follow .
she's will call us when we're out to make sure we eat dinner .
she do not allow us to reach home more than eleven . even for my uncle .
she has dimples , deep ones . that let us know we've done well .
she has overwhelming motivation for everyone of us .
she dont practice biased .
she scold everyone off all ages in the family .
she raised my mum and uncle after my grandfather .
she's my beginning and me for today .
although not my everything , the family is taking it deeply .



dear grandma .
may you rest in peace .
i loved u, we loved you .
your warmth are gone . you live else where .
everlasting in my mind that you'll be the one reprimanding me when i did something wrong .
u are the respect and you are the shelter .



how come i dont tears?
may be later .
if i dont be strong? who else be strong .
let me be the one to help you to push them up .
jian qiang is the word on my chest that i'll wear for these few days .
life goes on .
conscience still around .
soe's absent for a moment . will let u guys know when i'm back :)